| Red eyes |
[18 Nov 2009|08:52pm] |
Just went to bush gardens for the second time in two weeks... fun. But money is low.... But I would pay any amount to have a good time with my friends.
Fun bar is on exploding high right now.
PS ...
Dibs.
(Its an inside joke from today.... he he he.)
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| Want to hear my heart? |
[17 Nov 2009|01:35pm] |
its in this song
www.myspace.com/theingrownman
"Beachballs and waterguns"
I am proud.
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| Rough hands equal sad thing... |
[10 Nov 2009|11:13am] |
Well I've been sick for like a week now and pulled a muscle in my arm so I've just been sitting at home doing nothing.... Its making me angry because I can't go to the gym, I was doing so well.
Also sitting at home makes you realize how much fucking time you waste and how unimportant things are.
Thinking equal depressed.
I guess thats why I hang out with friends so much, to keep the bad out.
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| SHOW SOONY |
[09 Nov 2009|12:31pm] |
My band is playing at The Spot in downtown ft myers on the 28th it starts at 10 and my band is opening. Its pretty much going to be the best thing ever so you should come out and get naked with us.
be there!!!
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| Bullshit |
[09 Nov 2009|12:14am] |
lots of it lately. I wish I made more money so I could get the fuck out of my moms house. But I gotta stick to the game plan. Keep the eye on the prize!!!
Show was great, the band played good, I felt on for the most part... Shit was filmed and I had a blast. Till the fight but what else should I expect from fucking knuckle head doo doo chumps.
I am not happy about having a fucking facebook. I stressed to friends I didn't want one, now I have one involuntarily. Shits dumb. But I guess its funny... ha ha
Welp kind of pissed off now so I'm going to go masturbate way too hard.... goodnight.
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| Rage Power Courage |
[02 Nov 2009|11:49am] |
I stood up for my mother. Now I hope she stands up for herself.
ps
My band has a show on november 7th in fort myers at a place called ethos... its on fowler across the street from rockstars.... be there!!!!!!!!!!! please?
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| Power |
[07 Oct 2009|01:05pm] |
Stress
Questions
Mistakes
Learning
Anxiety
Focus
Focus
Focus
Foocus
phocus
fphokus
thoskus
My focus is blurred.
fix it.
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| ...... |
[28 Sep 2009|01:20pm] |
Stay focused.
I'm not too happy right now but I can work though it.
Stay focused.
......
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| Robert Feldman you murderer |
[14 Sep 2009|10:08pm] |
Today bobby made a joke about Patrick Swayzey dying. I was under the impression that he was getting better. I like him and love roadhouse... I feel like he would be a good friend. Like he would really help you out if you needed it.
Today about an hour after this feldman ordeal. P.S. died.
Feldman I'm holding you personally responsible.
I not really mad at bob... me just joke. But think situation is wierd.
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| chapter one million sixteen |
[26 Aug 2009|10:47am] |
Mike and Justin quit my band.... This sucks, but we aint stoppin. Need to find new members. We have a dream team in mind, I just hope it works out!!!
I'm hungry.
Can't forget to do pushups today, I've been doing them all week and I feel great about it.
Beard is pretty big again.... I love feeling like myself.
Just bought a whole new bed set, Looks good!!!
Nico just shattered the screen on his iphone and gave it to me, it still works soooo I got a cool new toy!!!
Still waiting to hear my bands ep, getting mixed and mastered as we speak!!!
Got new gym shorts so friends get used to me wearing these everyday for the next 3 months!!!!
I feel pretty good right now..... But last night was creepy, I swear I had some sort of night terror.
OH WELL!!!! Live life!
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| Mikey rules |
[10 Aug 2009|10:38pm] |
he fixed my hard drive.
me happy bout that.
its hot.
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| I've said it before I'll say it again |
[01 Aug 2009|01:38pm] |
Memories are a curse. Its like being immortal, "oh, you mean I get to live forever?! awesome!" Years go by you meet people you love people you lose people.
The highlander must have sooo many bad memories. Oh wait, he does... thats like the main thing they do with him, show all of his memories good and bad. But I think its the good ones that really kill you.
If it didn't hurt so much I would rip out my eyes.
Ps
livejournal is depressing. I want to stop using it, because I just use it to log my suicidal thoughts. If there is no log there will be no bad feelings huh?
To be human is such an inconvenience.
Bye the way this is me in one of the best weeks I've had in a while. Little things have been happening that make me smile. But confusion sets its nasty claws in my fucking brain.
Thats it, I'm turning hippie. I'm o do what ever I want when I want and see what happens. Maybe I'll have a bunch of cool stories to tell my never existing kids.
I wonder why I would post all this dumb shit for all my friends to see. I guess see if anyone cares.... Well I know I have the best friends ever and thats awesome. I just hate the world sometimes.
I wish I could create music that represents the way I feel emotionally and audioly (yup made that word up)
Lets go exploring is how music should be. Their music has everything thats rad and they left out all the crap.
Motivational - "did you really think you'd make it on your own?" "well we did. well we did try any way."
That shits so real it kills me. Seriously, awesome.
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| I just pulled a luc martin |
[25 Jul 2009|11:57am] |
Last night I did some recording with nico and I saved it to my external harddrive, Walking out of his house I dropped it.... I thought it'd be ok, it looked fine...
Today, nothing.... its broke. There goes the past 3 years of my life pictures, music, home videos, shows,lyrics, porn......
If you guys know anyway or anyone who could help me out please let me know
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| He just said it all. |
[07 Jul 2009|12:04am] |
"There's nothing worse than a girl that's crying in a bubble bath with you." -Ryan Mawson, in a drunken stuper.
This is fun.
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| Sacrifice |
[03 Jul 2009|09:28am] |
for nothing. Superman is dead.
I need to get new tires, I have two flats.... I have no money, I need to pay my phone, insurance, rent to me ma, 500 to band recording, and I NEED NEW FUCKING TIRES!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH
Someone get rich and give me money for doing nothing. Thats the american dream.
I feel like my brain is completely fried mush now.... This non drinking thing is not working yet!! I still feel drunk!!!! I am in between worlds and I can't concentrate. Its like a numb feeling between my eyes and my body is weak and tired.
I need to do something positive right now. Everything is tooo.... unreal.
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| wednesday |
[02 Jul 2009|02:29am] |
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I feel like a piece of shit. I hate mosquitoes. I hate unfamiliar faces. I miss my youth.
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[30 Jun 2009|11:25pm] |
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I just saw something I shouldn't have seen. I wish I could be someone else just for a minute. Now I think I know why I've been drinking so much. I hate being depressed. I hate emotion. Leave me.
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| ug |
[30 Jun 2009|11:21pm] |
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I am angry and sad and I am irate. I want this feeling to pass. I swear to god memories are a curse. I need to stay busy.
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